I'm going to write something here and then delete it, as I don't want it on this thread.
Gary is bright and can be thoughtful.
He's very grounded here and present.
But what he says does not necessarily line up with how he is as a human. (for many complicated reasons)
You are not undeserving. We all have to do the work of ourselves. Apologizing at times (whether we are forgiven is something else) and looking at ourselves with clarity and honesty. Which can be extremely challenging.
You’re right. How I am “as a human” is not very grounded at times. Most of the time I feel -- not that feelings reflect reality -- messed up and insecure and neurotic (and worse).
I'm going to write something here and then delete it, as I don't want it on this thread.
Gary is bright and can be thoughtful.
He's very grounded here and present.
But what he says does not necessarily line up with how he is as a human. (for many complicated reasons)
You are not undeserving. We all have to do the work of ourselves. Apologizing at times (whether we are forgiven is something else) and looking at ourselves with clarity and honesty. Which can be extremely challenging.
Don't raise him above yourself.
You’re right. How I am “as a human” is not very grounded at times. Most of the time I feel -- not that feelings reflect reality -- messed up and insecure and neurotic (and worse).
Hope that helps, EET