I think about what has happened, over and over. I gave up my friends (or so I had thought them to be) and my career (because I realized too late that "medicine" was a lie). I tried so hard to convince people to see what I saw, but was ignored by most--screamed at by some. My parents listened to me, thankfully.
I think about what has happened, over and over. I gave up my friends (or so I had thought them to be) and my career (because I realized too late that "medicine" was a lie). I tried so hard to convince people to see what I saw, but was ignored by most--screamed at by some. My parents listened to me, thankfully.
I was fortunate that I was able to walk away--I lived very frugally.
I used to be a doctor, a good doctor.
It makes me sad.
Most of my neighbors pretend nothing happened--I am not sure how they are able to do that.
Oh boy, I’m so sorry. I had really good friends who were doctors. One was an anesthesiologist, another was a neurosurgeon. They used to talk about their battles with hospital administration and insurance companies. It ended up not being at all what they went into medicine for to begin with. Sadly, both got into really harmful ways of numbing their frustration and both are deceased. It was such a complete waste of intelligence and talent…and compassion as they both really cared about patients. I’m glad your parents are supportive of you and that you were able to get out. I don’t know how people can pretend nothingness happened. It is beyond me. Maybe Stockholm Syndrome? That’s a wild guess, though. I have no rational explanations anymore.
Fortunately I did not have to confront "the clot shot or you're fired". But thought about it a lot. "What would I have done?" For many average people in that position without unlimited options and a big resume that allows you to write your own ticket it is a stark no win choice. If you lose your job you may also lose your house and kids everything because it is often a fair weather world out there. All I had to confront was some real awkward conversations and exclusion from some once in a lifetime family events. But, because I realize that I was in a relatively fortunate period of life for this thing to be happening I was fully aware of what was happening to others in different situations. I do know of one Doctor who had to resign because of clot shot demands. He is prime of life, big job big responsibilities big mortgage & big expectations. A wife and kids dependent on him. But he stuck to his principles and landed on his feel. Have a lot of respect for him because NO ONE needs that sort of stress. Particularly when it is unnecessary "they just want to mess with you" stress.
I think about what has happened, over and over. I gave up my friends (or so I had thought them to be) and my career (because I realized too late that "medicine" was a lie). I tried so hard to convince people to see what I saw, but was ignored by most--screamed at by some. My parents listened to me, thankfully.
I was fortunate that I was able to walk away--I lived very frugally.
I used to be a doctor, a good doctor.
It makes me sad.
Most of my neighbors pretend nothing happened--I am not sure how they are able to do that.
Oh boy, I’m so sorry. I had really good friends who were doctors. One was an anesthesiologist, another was a neurosurgeon. They used to talk about their battles with hospital administration and insurance companies. It ended up not being at all what they went into medicine for to begin with. Sadly, both got into really harmful ways of numbing their frustration and both are deceased. It was such a complete waste of intelligence and talent…and compassion as they both really cared about patients. I’m glad your parents are supportive of you and that you were able to get out. I don’t know how people can pretend nothingness happened. It is beyond me. Maybe Stockholm Syndrome? That’s a wild guess, though. I have no rational explanations anymore.
Fortunately I did not have to confront "the clot shot or you're fired". But thought about it a lot. "What would I have done?" For many average people in that position without unlimited options and a big resume that allows you to write your own ticket it is a stark no win choice. If you lose your job you may also lose your house and kids everything because it is often a fair weather world out there. All I had to confront was some real awkward conversations and exclusion from some once in a lifetime family events. But, because I realize that I was in a relatively fortunate period of life for this thing to be happening I was fully aware of what was happening to others in different situations. I do know of one Doctor who had to resign because of clot shot demands. He is prime of life, big job big responsibilities big mortgage & big expectations. A wife and kids dependent on him. But he stuck to his principles and landed on his feel. Have a lot of respect for him because NO ONE needs that sort of stress. Particularly when it is unnecessary "they just want to mess with you" stress.