You are right. I hadn't thought of this before..... I was lonely, I was isolated, but I have always been comfortable being independent and by myself (though I enjoy the company of people. It wasn't the loneliness or the isolation that made the experience so bleak; it was the feeling of abandonment through the shunning, the hatred express…
You are right. I hadn't thought of this before..... I was lonely, I was isolated, but I have always been comfortable being independent and by myself (though I enjoy the company of people. It wasn't the loneliness or the isolation that made the experience so bleak; it was the feeling of abandonment through the shunning, the hatred expressed by people I've known and loved all my life, towards me or towards people "like me" (half of them never knew I had decided not to get any shots). It felt like a death. It felt like there was no hope. It felt like I was utterly alone, cut off from relationships which had been built over decades, and the worst part was that it was not only a physical separation, but a mental and emotional separation. They seemed so quick, all too willing to just cut me (or people like me) out of their lives, and carry on amongst themselves with social relationship-building activities. As though, as far as they were concerned, I'd ceased to even exist, not even in their memory.
It was as if a switch was flipped and "everyone" went some where that I did not know how to go. Very disorienting. Community is important. Sisterly love to you. Thank you very much.
You are right. I hadn't thought of this before..... I was lonely, I was isolated, but I have always been comfortable being independent and by myself (though I enjoy the company of people. It wasn't the loneliness or the isolation that made the experience so bleak; it was the feeling of abandonment through the shunning, the hatred expressed by people I've known and loved all my life, towards me or towards people "like me" (half of them never knew I had decided not to get any shots). It felt like a death. It felt like there was no hope. It felt like I was utterly alone, cut off from relationships which had been built over decades, and the worst part was that it was not only a physical separation, but a mental and emotional separation. They seemed so quick, all too willing to just cut me (or people like me) out of their lives, and carry on amongst themselves with social relationship-building activities. As though, as far as they were concerned, I'd ceased to even exist, not even in their memory.
You did the right thing. It is the way .God bless.
So beautifully expressed, Dani (of course with great sorrow)...
It was as if a switch was flipped and "everyone" went some where that I did not know how to go. Very disorienting. Community is important. Sisterly love to you. Thank you very much.